By saying you love someone but you dun mean it will hurt her.This is what i told you.Do you know u hurt me so deep and you gave me high hopes on you.I dun know what to do.I only have you now to count on and its difficult if you have to go like the others.What did i do to get this ill-treatment from people who i love?It has been a question i have long think about and i hope i get the answer.Either to move on or stay.I`m confuse!Please make me release the mistakes i had done so i can change to become better.*Praying hard to get your love...fingers cross!Just for you=(Labels: crying over you
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
11:33 PM
happy ever after
Im happy!yesh i really do.i dun expect to meet you up close and personal.i miss you like hell after you get back with her but now when i gave you a second chance for us to be this close,i know you can change for me and let me prove my love towards you.i know you are trying hard to love me but dun let it get over and destroy this friend/relationship we had.i wanna mit you again.i starting to miss you.
now i feel much rilek after my MT oral is over.i hate talking to adult and those teachers look so fierce and unfriendly.Tomorrow skulling like normal and im so lazy.hopefully i can wake up and get all my work done!
5 food and nutrition worksheet,5 physic worksheet,1 book of n-level series chemistry,1 exam paper from fajar for mathematics.i really need to start doing them.=)
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
4:01 AM
How does it feel breaking our friendship ?
i dun know what you are trying to do but you said that if for my own good.
i dun get you and just break down and cry.
you make me smile and we cried together when when you are a guy who look fierce from the outside.
i dun get you.
you make everything goes round and finally you said you are leaving me.
we when up and down on life almost on everything.
the only thing i can do now is smile and pray for you.=(
tears running down while i was typing this*
Proudly i could say,i finish my whole set of 2 FNN worksheet in one night and bearly cant wake up in the morning.
i promise SOMEONE to change and i hope i really do.
he is my number 1 support.
ily SOMEONE!
sometimes i feel that,after bestfriend is gone,SOMEONE is the one who give me strength to move on and progress on life with no hesitation and regrets.
My family is back together and please GOD.
dun make us suffer again just because of 3rd party and money.
i dun wanna lose my family.
make mummy cry or daddy cry in the middle of the night just not fair for me who is looking at their suffering.
well tomorrow will be my MT oral.
wish me all the best kies people.
i had confident and i making myself prepared with all the materials given.
fuyohh..
can feel my own heartbeat.
thaat s for now i just out of ideas now.
WISH ME ALL THE BEST!
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
3:52 AM
I should not have said that
am i too frank to you and to hard on you?
well i dun mean to
sometimes things just run out of control and u cant hold it any longer.
how i wish thinks could turn back
but now its too late
im not to desperate for you
i just need your guides on life
come back and i show you what is love
so now!
i dun know what happen between those guys but i wanna get my problem straight
we dun go back because we are late
and we dun wanna waste time
and now
we will fight to the finish alrite
oik bro!
bangun la
kau ton aku pon
tapi ku leh angun kau aper cite tk angun2?!
get up
semalam semangat sangat
haha
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
3:06 AM
SERIOUSLY OUT OF WORDS
aku tk tahu la kenape orang mcm korang suke sangat terase.
kalau ader hal bbl la kies
tk yah nk wat muke
like i say,
tk happy leh bbl
jangan cakap jauh2
cant accept the fact then diam2 jek
aku bukan pernah ader kawan umor 15 cume korang jek pe
so tk yah terase leh tk ?
and yah i dun get one thing
kate tk uker abe asl bace blog aku?
bodohkan korang.
i admit
i have alot of enemy abe asl?
but at least i dun go behind people back
and giving 2 faces.
THIS IS THE LAST TIME TK HAPPY LEH BOBAL!TKMO BACE BLOG AKU KALAU TK UKER.LEH PICIT TU RED CROSS PAT RIGHT .TK NAMPAK BUKAK MATE BESAR2!Labels: some people are stupid
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
11:53 PM
OPEN MY EYES
Running out of pictures and i dun know what else to upload. so gambar nie pon jadik la .Use to hate him for his kerek face but now i am close to him and i love calling him gala!kecoh la everythime i mit him tk pernah senyap punye.enough about him nanti dier bace kembang pulak member!
Sorry to sayang-sayang i pat marsling pasal semlm i tk turon.i was having a fever and fall asleep while waiting for kakak to reach home.todae conferm i turon.PROMISE!i starting to miss you ladies and gentlemen pulak.
tadi super boring in skul and i fall asleep for 2 period straight.all the subjects were so boring and mostly revision all the way.tomorrow racial harmony day and i dun know what to way .maybe going home half way cause classes is boring and i got to know my bestfriend sharidah is hospitalized .GET WELL SOON.will be visiting you tomorrow =)
Labels: moment cherish
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
11:19 PM
up or down?
kies i seriously love my hair=)
dun ask why.
i am now on a bad headache.
nothing to talk about just waiting for kiki to
put back my tagged box.
=)
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
4:34 AM
My past my present has not been excluding you!
Sorry if i had to put my old pictures.i just had updating blog without pictures.it kinda plain and boring .so here is a picture of cousin,me and sis.taken at sengkang lrt lift.those are now all memories what to do right.Yesterday super fun but some parts kind of cock up.we reach first at East coast park and we the ladies get drunk.KECOH KECOH!we talk crap last-last the guys jugak yang layan kite standard they know us well enough.Mit flizz for awhile and he is kinda hawt and cute.kecik jek orang dier!while we were walking to bedok jetty,it rain heavily and we were stuck.Sat at the toilet till the rain stop.Ran in the rain and i kinda have fun too reach home at 1030 and daddy is not even angry.kies but i cant take advantage towards tat.
Today whole day sleeping at home so boring and tomorrow uncle coming and i heard mummy and daddy is selling this house and moving to teck whye!OMG I HATE IT THERE!please dun move i dun want to.super upset when i heard that almost break down and cry.
To you SMALL BOY-aku tk pasal kau nk kacau aku ke pape tapi sedar diri kau tu sikit kau tu masih sec 3 budak baru nk naik.aku paham lagi zaman fanatic korang masih nk naik and mcm2 mau try .tapi ingat ehk,ader pergi ader balik aku aper heran kau lelaki yang aku tahu aku puas hati.well we see bout that!=)
SAPE2 YANG NK TERASE TU SILEKAN!
TK HAPPY JUMPE =)
Labels: aint being a cyber bully but i state the fact about myself
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
5:45 AM
SPEECHLESS!
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
2:11 AM
Sometimes I miss The Past Which I Used To Have.
Picture took years back when i was still i gurla who mix with hougang abang-abang.i seriously miss them.Abang ijal busy with N.S and the others already kerek with me.well cant be blamed.People do change right.But still the precious memories i had with them is unforgetable.i can promise you that one day i wanna make a reunion dinner with all the friends that i wants had and now missing in action.As written at my wall on facebook,dun trust a friend who can only make you happy for a moment but trust a friend who can make you happy for a lifetime.=)
Friends update done!
Family problems is endless for me.Being an aries kid is not easy.i dun know why but i keep on seeing that my parents gave more attention towards my elder syster and cousin than me.But still i have to stand up for my right.i cant keep quite like i use to and stay dumb like nobody cares.i wish i wish i wish, i could get out from this hardship once and for all.Kies now, im speechless.i only could trust mama which is my god mothers and they are the only ones who understand me besides my own parents.till here if im bored,i will update again.
Labels: fucked the past and kiss the future
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
10:37 PM
O.M.G!
Yesterday was super funny.i broke up with man and i patch back with kenet.since man is like a childish kid,i gave up and since kenet is still waiting for me then i when back with him and continue our journey of life.Yesterday i contacted back all the guys who were close to me which i had to let go when i was with man.SO YARH!
idil
hadi (boi dragon)
amy kecik
sharul club
kenet satsat
& many more!
Even when im still sad and dissapointed with what had happen,i am still strong even when some backstabbing occour ,break up and misunderstanding.i know i still have my L.A.H even time with me cheering me up every single time i am down.
L.A.H=Love.At.Heart
nomore babygirls!
im sorry but im out.
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:11 PM
050710
many people agree that i look matured then my sister.then why?got a problem with that?!hehe.picture took last year but still, its my favourite one among all.looking perfect and i loving it!kies now i really fuck up.plan made but last minute cock up.soo irritating. but have to be patient.finally,im attached to KHAIRUL AZMAN.i dun know how but i just did.i ,babyg emma and adk putri got the same date.PERFECT!050710.sorry cant update to much have to get ready and mit the usual .i statrting to miss boyfriend already so yarh!=)
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
8:51 PM
YESTERDAY TODAY TOMORROW
Memories still stays.
i dun know what is up with them now.
since everyone is busy and i really miss then bites and pieces.
its been a long time we had our gathering nor outing.
i just miss every single one of them.
to any of you reading my blog,
i hope we got to mit up soon and be happy like before.
Laugh and be mad together as one.
Kies, yesterday i mit the usual and obviously khairul azman.
Semalam dier perangai and i did cry but i managed to over come.
Feeling still stick and we did talk at last over the phone.
itu pon bilang da stop perangai.
well,i trying my best to adapt his style of living.
so yarh!
yesterday it was the first time wan sat with us and share his experience.
his life is really complicated and he still managed them.
IMPRESS!
i wanna just like him!
taking things easy and go with the flow!
today i wont be going out to mit the usual so i guess,
i will be staying at him till nite falls.
BORING but have to rest.
Tomorrow will be miting the usual and faisal will be coming down.
wooohoooooooo!
Labels: things change but not my feelings
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
10:24 PM
let me sleep and dun wake me up.
Looking at the pictures above just bring back good memories what i use to be.Spending time with secondary friends and also outing that i had endless fun with.i just dun know why it has to end so fast.GOSH!Those pictures where taken during secondary three.Enough of admiring my own pictures and thinking of the past .
FUCK THE PAST KISS THE FUTURE.
Yesterday met the usual people.In one day i and that particular person when thru alot of ups and downs.we were happy,sad and also mad at each other for our own mistakes.i admit kies dear.partly its my fault.thanks for giving me a second chance on proving you that i still love you and hearing that you love me too just melts my heart and those hard feeling just ran away.
To babygirls.thanks joyce for talking to that particular person and helping me out .i know he is so hard headed but still i love him and u manage to knock some sense to him.to emma,thanks for making me felt better with your comfort.i really apprciate it .
happy at last with everything and never expected we had fun after that.wow!
trust me people,i love every single one of them its its obvious as i called them my SECOND FAMILY!=)
Labels: like a fairy tale
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
9:36 PM
Sad and Happy Story
seriously FUCKED UP with you!why must you always burden me with money problems?i dun understand you?where is all your money after you get your pay?you always has no money when it comes to me and the nessecary things i needed.i totally wanted to broke down infront of you but i stay strong.making reasons that you paid the bills it not accepted because its clear to us after the incident,you obviously did not.always blaming me for what i said but you never look at yourself.i always at fault when it comes to this and after we qurrel you will always said that i dont care bout your feeling bout what bout you?did you care bout me?saying to me that this is the last thing i get before my N levels.do you thing i can believe you after all this happen again?promising me that i get everything i wanted after my N levels.do you think by you saying that i can believe you?i dont take your words cause you i know you for 16 years i know your attiude.im dissapointed in you papa.=(
That is what happen between me and my daddy but i guess i just cant trust him anymore.kay now,i wont talk bout my sad story with you jiwang-jiwang pulak ah^mel nie.Tadikan, unexpected that i and azman could be very close.Kalau jodoh tak ke mane.i met him straight after skul and he did too.Happy giler tau dapat jumpe dier tapikan the tak bst part is,he has to go home early so do i.sedih tau ah^mel.Besok tk dapat jumpe dier cause i got function in skul and he is maybe going fishing with his friend.Hey ladies and gentlemen,i maybe in love with a 15 years old but i bet he is more matured then you guys out there that only wanted to make use of me.im not rich nor poor but i just need true love.maybe i found mine.Thanks for the continues kisses you gave me cause i know you mean it everytime you did it.Its gentle and loving and i love you for who you are and i guess you are the one i searching for right now.=)Labels: average day
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
5:47 AM
Hanya SATU dalam SERIBU
